breakdown #1

[day 169] sunday: i went to pastor dawns house early this morning to watch isaiah while she had to preach. Then she brought lunch home and we chatted for awhile. I tried really hard not to have another meltdown in front of Isaiah, but all i wanted to do was breakdown and cry. I held it in, and called her later. We set up another coffee date. After babysitting && talking to P. Dawn i tried to take a nap, but i just couldnt sleep. I offered to watch my friend Alex's baby so she could have a date night with James. It was a good distraction and i loved watching baby Ryder.

[January 8th!]

Isaiah spelled his name out of jenga blocks. all.by.himself.!!! 

incredible.!

baby ryder.

love you little boy!